Right now my life looks the most bland and boring it’s ever been. There’s nothing flashy about it. It’s very basic. Most weeks look exactly the same. No bells, no whistles. Just a plain and very normal life. Yet here I am being brought to tears every couple of days because of how happy I am. Each day is fulfilling. I keep finding my self saying “Wow, I really do live the best life!” I really am the happiest I’ve ever been which is surprising for how monotonous my daily life is.
God is slowly revealing to me what truly matters and what is the key to a purposeful and fulfilling life. I’m also starting to notice that this has been years in the making. He has been pulling me closer. The things that I once found important are losing their meaning. Step by step he has asked me to let go and trust in Him. God has been chipping away at my life until one thing remains.
My life has been full of ups and downs. For years it would take traumatic experiences in my life to force me to finally decide to turn towards Him. It would only be when life became really miserable that I would let go of the reins and let the Lord run the show. Each time I would walk out of those experiences with a taste of what really matters.
Now I find myself going to Him before things take a turn for the worst. Sometimes I run straight to the Lord when all is well in my life. Each decision to choose him regardless of the situation or circumstance offers me yet another taste of what gives my life purpose. Fruit begins to grow all around me. Being content, satisfied, joyful, comforted, at peace. It all starts to flourish in every area of my life.
Yet when I take a step back and look at my life from a worldly perspective, I’m simply working a job, paying my bills, running errands, and doing my chores. What nobody will ever notice is the time spent shut away in my closet. A dinky old closet which has now become my sanctuary in which I partake in the one thing that actually matters in this world. I’m no longer frantically searching for something or someone that will fill me up. No longer trying to figure out what I need to be doing so that I can feel like my life has meaning.
I now get to work my job, clean my house, spend time with my pets, do my laundry, go grocery shopping, get to bed on time, and occasionally play some video games, as the happiest person in the world. I’ve begun to taste what really matters in this small life that we get to live. I feel like I’m just getting started.
“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.”